Bob was my life. She got me through the most difficult times in my life when I felt so desolate and lonely. The walks we had through Darland Woods, me offering her my heart and her accepting, always doing funny things to make me smile. Eventually, after 5 years, the fertility treatment worked and I was blessed with my eldest son Joe. Bobbi even got me through labour which was fast and intense. No breaks in pain, just 2 hours of PAIN! She threw balls for me when I tried to bathe waiting for my husband to come home and followed me around like a shadow. We only just made it to the hospital in time because I insisted she be left with my mum just in case the labour went on too long. Half hour later, Joe was born!
She was with me throught the night feeds, always invisably attached to my leg! Imagine, having everything you want in this world..... a fantastic husband, nice home, the baby you always longed for and the dog you wished for when you were 8 years old then to find that it was all going to end... just like that.
I always called Bobbi "my gift from God" or "my wish come true" because when I was a child I prayed for a dog all of my own. It would be a girl, small and scruffy and she would want just me. Bob was all of those things and more.
I think that when her job was done with me (and that was to get me through the baron years) she was called back. Since my cancer diagnosis, I have felt Bobbi so close to me I can practically smell her and feel her hair in my hands. She was a miracle.
Talking of miracles, another one happened yesterday. As you know, post chemo, steroids out of my system, I was so tired I could barely speak coherently, could hardly walk but still kept fighting on which in itself is really hard to do. I found out about the neighbours plans on face book so I actually posted a comment myself hoping that my neighbours remembered that I was still fighting cancer....
The close remained quiet....... Having viewed FB it seems the party was taken elsewhere, not far but the house is on the main lane and detached....... Did they do this because of my comment? Did they do this because they actually considered me? I don't know and I never will. Sadly though the gesture was spoilt by a barbed comment this morning "great time, no complaints..."
Whatever miracles happen in life, I am just so happy that they happen, especially last night!