Session 2 of 12: So tired....

I can't believe how tired I am all of the time. This session, I don't seem to have had any respite at all. Yesterday, I had a 2 hour meeting with the Autistic Psychiatrist re my sons followed by lunch with my Weight Watchers leader and friends and by the time I got home I was so tired I felt sick. I felt so guilty because my mum turned up and I was laid up in bed for 2 hours! She understands though I felt much better after my sleep.

However, my little boy paid us our nightly visit AGAIN! I thought that we had got him out of the habit of coming to our bed but since he has been back at school after the Easter break, he has gone back to his old habits, complaining of nightmares. This doesn't help me at all because I then can't sleep and end up in his bed which is a mid sleeper and incredibly difficult for me to get in and out of. What do we do?..... I have decided that I deliver an ultimatum to all of the boys! If Harry continues to visit my bed then I am having his bedroom for the duration of my treatment. I will remove his bed and replace it with one I am comfortable with! What do you think?

My veins are still really sore and so are my gums and my nose. Mind you, if it means this cancer doesn't return then I don't mind so much. I just can't wait to get back to normal, to start running again and being active.

My friend is doing the RACE FOR LIFE in my name, I am honoured! I did it last year and thoroughly enjoyed it, what an experience, its amazing. I will be doing it in 2010! In the meantime; Sharon, I am putting a race package together for you!! Go girl!!

My brain is chemo today and I can't seem to think of the words I want to say so I will end my blog on that note.