Wednesday 4 November 2009

Weight Gain and Bloating!

You will know about my bloating until the weekend when it started to get better. I had my meeting with the surgeon this morning and she confirmed what I already knew, that the bloating and weight gain was due to the drug Tamoxifen. However, my cancer tested extremely sensitive to hormones so really, I would be silly to stop taking it. I was given advice on how to reduce swelling and told that hopefully everything would start to settle down soon. I will have another review in 6 months.


This is what I already knew in my heart of hearts but I following my blue day last week, I have a renewed vigour to reach my target. I WILL lose weight, I WILL run again and I WILL get my fitness back!


I was given the all clear to start swimming again which will help with lymphatic drainage and she endorsed my running which is all positive!

I had my second lot of herceptin today and everything went as smoothly as before.

I had my second run today.... 60 seconds running, 3 minutes walking x 4 - 16 mins. I went out before the children were up because I knew I had a busy hospital day ahead of me and as it is my training plan to run on a Monday, Wednesday, Friday and Sunday, I really didn't want to jeopardise the plan when I had only just started. I was extremely proud of myself at making this supreme effort, I didn't let any negatives get in the way, I went out and did it. The only thing I found was, because I didn't warm up due to the time constraints and I didnt take my ventolin before hand, I found it slightly harder going than Monday.



I feel as though I am getting control back of my life and that is brilliant. I am have some exciting plans which I need to set in motion. The first being Reiki, I desperately want to master this skill so that I can use it in my professional life with dogs. I also want to take an animal first aid course and possibly a course in canine nutruition. I want to explore the spiritual side of my soul as well.... I would like to learn how to open my pyschie and be able to harness that skill which has been neglected for so long.

Despite the cancer diagnosis, I have found my War with Cancer quite liberating. For the first time in my life I am relaxed, I don't worry about things any more, I appreciate what I have. The only fear I have is of regression. I do not want to return to my old habits of self criticism, of eating disorders and low self esteem. I recognise my enemy within and I will fight it as I have fought cancer.....

5 comments:

  1. Cancer does have its gifts.

    Sometimes the price tag is a little high.

    I'm glad to see you taking control and coping with chemo as well as you obviously are.

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  2. Hi Sara,

    I hear what you are saying! I weigh more than I ever have right now. The chemo, prednisone, and general low activity level have had an effect on my body. It's really not the end of the world, I know, but I have also had challenges with eating disorders, self-criticism, etc. I was giving myself a really hard time today, feeling ugly and out of shape. That is all such a mind trip though. It's not at all what we really are. I'm not sure what we really are, but I am proud of us. We go through so much as human beings, creatures on this crazy planet. Sometimes the hardest thing to do is to love oneself!

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  3. Would it be a good idea to give you a chance to take a break from Friday Shoot Out, just let me know when you are ready to return.

    Sincerely,

    Chef E
    Elizabeth Stelling

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  4. Did you read a BBC report about Tumeric? I can give you a recipe of tumeric rice.

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  5. You are on your way to recovery. So you doubled your running time-everyday you will find yourself a little bit stronger. I find it helpful to keep a log.You'll see progress.

    I still have some pounds to tackle even though I exercise now quite a bit. I'm not taking Tamoxifen or aromatase inhibitors either that would explain my bloating though I don't think I have any natural hormones left. And Tuesday, I will deal with the hair. Tired of people guessing that I am older than I am.

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